I'm a Recovering Over-Thinker

I am a recovering over-thinker. For example, the creation of this blog almost got thought about so much that it didn't happen.

For more than a year, I have been saying how much I would love to start a blog. My line of thought has literally sounded like, "This person writes a blog, I could do that. I would love to write blog posts about that. I think I have interesting thoughts and opinions. And even if no one reads them, I would enjoy it." These thoughts, however, turned into more negative thoughts, "Well I'm not that great of a writer. My opinions and thoughts don't matter that much. I don't even know how to start a blog. I hate technology. I'm too young, anyways. No one would even read it, so what's the point."

Thankfully, I have come to accept these thoughts as lies. We all have lies in our heads that we tell ourselves over and over again until we start to believe them. These lies keep us from greatness. They keep us from hearing the truth. They tear us down thought by thought until we don't even know the truth from the lie anymore. We are left feeling defeated, ordinary, mundane, insignificant, and lacking.

I've been there. I've felt that. I even had some of those same thoughts as I was writing this today. "What will people think? Is this good enough?" The answer to these questions and these thoughts is YES! I am good enough, not because the world says so. I am good enough because I say so. I believe in me. I know my motivation and my purpose. But there is a greater force at work in my life as well. This is the force of God. Jesus says, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me" (John 14:6 NIV). I believe Jesus shows us God's love for us. Jesus reminds us that we are called to love God and love people. All of these lies that I tell myself and all the over-thinking that regularly plays through my brain is not God. It is not good because it is not true. Jesus is the way. Jesus is the truth. Jesus is the life. My over-thinking mind of lies is not true. Praise the Lord! I can be free. I am no longer bound to these thoughts!

The more we come to believe in the deep and powerful love that God has for each of us, there is no holding back. I've thought long enough about this blog post. I've thought long enough about who God called me to be. I've thought long enough about what I want my life to be like. I'm done thinking about it. It's time to have faith in God and myself. I am ready to do. I am ready to act. I am ready to become. Somewhere on this journey of thinking, I started doing. And I am so thankful that I did. So welcome to my real life! My real thoughts. My real struggles on this Real Life Blog. My hope for you, my reader, is that you also do what God calls you to do. Break down, and just do the dang thing. Do it big or do it small. Whatever is holding you back from a better life with God, I pray it will be removed. I promise 100% of the time if it's good and it's for God, you won't regret it.